whole.

i came into 2010 utterly torn apart and lost.  alcohol, a broken heart, and no sense of faith or self sent me straight to rock bottom.

but you know what rock bottom became?  a foundation.


if i could put into words how beautiful this past year has been, i would.  it has been a year full of struggles, mistakes, and failures to be sure, but it was without a doubt my year of self-discovery.

when i look back on my life, 2010 will undoubtedly remain the year that shaped Carolyn Marie St. Cyr, a young woman who learned that Jesus is life, not merely an addition to it, and that her heart needed to belong to Him if it was ever going to belong to anyone at all.  She learned that Jesus had placed so many people in her life that would move and grow along with her, support her, guide her, love her, and laugh with her.  She learned humility, patience, gratefulness, and peace, and is still learning all of those things today.  She began to trust in the Lord with her whole heart and soul, not merely in word and deed.  She recognized that everything she learned will be a continuing lesson to be relearned over and over again during her journey.

i come into 2011 whole.  faith, a heart that is starting to love again, and a much stronger sense of self are building my future.  i owe it all to Jesus and those people that He has placed in my life who support me  regardless of my failures.  in particular: mgjgc. kkp. mkw. kvy. nad. cer. hmg. sms+sws+les+sms.

i know i have yet before me lots of growth, lots of struggles, lots of mistakes, and lots of pain, but here's to a new year that is beginning in the right way.  Oh Father God, what amazing things you have in store for me.  Thank You for 2010...it's shaping 2011.