wow.

really?  that's what you're going to do?


i was at least courteous and courageous enough to leave the pictures up.  if you really want to be distinguished from me so badly that you'd go to the extreme to un-tag all of them?


fine.


The Lord continues to prove to me just how much of a waste you were.  It's too bad, really.  I tried to give you the benefit of the doubt.  Oh well.  Thanks for proving me wrong.


Just stop.  breathe.  it isn't worth all of that, now is it?  recording my thoughts in the moment is therapeutic, but i always feel a little silly after.  especially over something as trivial as this.

tired.

i am just so very sad.  and so tired of 2011.

enough now.

today is the last day.

i am going to give it my all to make it the last day i let my heart ache for what is already out of reach.

time for a good cry, a cup of tea, and some scripture.

enough.

just my luck.

crippled yet again.

how, you might ask?

fell down the stairs and broke my pinkie toe.  takes some skill.

ashes and smoke

i can do this.  i can be strong.  i can make it here.

bit by bit, things are looking up.  some days are oh-so-hard.  and some days i sit at my desk and wonder why in the world i left home.

but the Lord is bestowing favor on me in different ways, and little by little i am becoming thankful and appreciative for that.  i am indeed being refined through fire, and i cannot wait to see what life after the fire will be like once the ashes have settled and the smoke has cleared.

"It is always surprising how small a part of life is taken up by meaningful moments.  Most often they are over before they start...although they cast a light on the future and make the person who originated them unforgettable."

(from Anna and the King)