Cycle.

I'm a hypocrite through and through. And I don't know how to break free of this when being with him is the best release I've had in a long time.

stumble.

i feel like i am constantly running forward, trying so hard, but i just can't keep from stumbling over something every single time i feel like i've finally hit my stride.

i know in my heart that i will be able to look back in a year and say, "Thank you Lord for the stumbles, because that was me climbing my way to the top of this mountain."

but tonight, that reason is just not helping the right here, right now.