reminisce

occasionally I take the time to catch up with best friends from years past.  and by catch up, I mean stalk them on facebook for any interesting tidbits that might be on their profile.

today, it was KMS.  in middle school, she was my utmost and absolute best friend.  we were inseparable until about sophomore year of high school, and then we drifted and went through various phases until we graduated.  I often think about how much fun we had, and how much of my personality and who I am today was shaped by her and her friendship.  I learned today that she's going to be corps member with TFA next year.  honestly and truly, it fits her perfectly.  and, also honestly and truly, it gives me a little pang of sadness to know that a desire to work with TFA was something that was on both of our hearts.  Not because she got it and I didn't; I fully know that it was not God's plan for me.  no, the pang of sadness comes because our mutual interest shows that we are still, at least a little bit, the same as we were so many years ago.  and because i wonder what it would be like if we were still such best friends, still involved in one another's life.

i know for everything there is a season, and that people come and go in our lives for a distinct purpose as designed by the Lord.

but i cannot help but reminisce just a little bit, and wish that it wasn't all just memories.