river.

yes, i'm scared to move to a new place.  i'm scared of missing home and missing my friends.  but as i was laying in bed last night trying to fall asleep, as usual my mind began to wander.  i began to realize that whether i like it or not, life is moving on and it is trying to sweep me to new places.  even if i choose to remain stuck like a rock in a river, the current will move on around me.  just because i refuse to move does not mean things are going to remain the same.

i think for the longest time i've had the notion that if i keep things the same, nothing will change.  for example, coming back home every summer and even being at home now...if everything feels like it always has, then that must mean everything will stay the same, right?

not hardly.  nick is moving to africa.  kara has new roommates.  marykate is going to France.  meret is working in charlotte.  kelc has a full time job.  mary is going to spain.  celia is in argentina.  hunter is working on the vineyard and then spending time with his dad til he settles in DC.

the fact of the matter is, nothing is the same and it is never going to be the way that it was.  so i guess i need to learn that change is not a bad thing.

but it is just so hard when you love the life you've been living and you don't get a say in whether or not it stays the same.

slow down, river.