trust.

You hold everything in Your perfect plan...and I believe I can see a part of your plan for my life.  and I'm trusting and clinging to Your goodness and promise and knowledge that if the plan that I am seeing before me now is indeed Your plan, then whatever happens in the next few days or weeks that might break my heart or scare me or leave me feeling empty and alone will be refining me and be preparing me for the beauty and strength that is yet before me.  I do not feel for one single moment that things have worked out in this way for no reason at all.  Crazy job that pays me more than I could imagine.  A wonderful house of girls who are loving me and supporting me.  A boyfriend who is living four miles down the road.  And yes, one of those things is in question right now, and the possibility of that thing actually disappearing from my life is something that terrifies me to no end.  But I cannot fathom how God in his intimate and wonderful plan would formulate all of these things together so perfectly only to have one of them drop away a few weeks in.

So I'm sitting back and letting it be and instead choosing tonight to focus on my praise for the Lord and how much His blessings in my life are so very apparent.  And when my overreactions stand in strong contrast to that, I realize how amazing and beautiful our God really is.  And he is taking care of me in more ways that I could ever possibly imagine.  And if the love of my life really does let me go?   Well, that's when I get to remember that Jesus is the love of my life and He will never let me go.  I'm going to be just fine.

The wind and the clouds and the blue in the sky
The sun and the moon and the stars so high
The sand on the shore and the waves in the sea
The air in my lungs and the way You made me


The blood in my veins and my heart you invade
The plants how they grow and the tree and their shade
The way that I feel and the love in my soul
I thank you my God for letting me know


I am, I'm captivated by You
In all that You do
I am, I'm captivated
'Cause I am, I'm captivated by You
In all that you do
I am, I'm captivated...