its been a weird couple of days. i'm discovering that my fears about coming back to Wake...the immaturity, the bubble, the triviality that rules the lives of so many here...its all manifesting itself just how i hoped it wouldn't.
but i don't wish i was back home, or that it was still Christmas break. Lord knows i needed to get away from all of that, although that certainly hasn't been easy either.
so, i find myself in the in-between. i'm not happy, nor am i unhappy. i'm not satisfied, nor am i unsatisfied. i'm not ready for the semester to progress, nor am i unready.
maybe this is what they call apathy? its a feeling that i do not like. i've always been the big "feeler," the emotional, sentimental one who oftentimes doesn't know whats good for her and doesn't know when to hide emotions. so to not feel anything at all? its new territory.
the only feeling i am trying to keep alive right now?
"This is my comfort in my distress, that Your promise gives me life." Psalm 119:50
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